Don’t Go

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He did what?

Killed himself, he was suffering from depression…

O how often I contemplated this over and over again in my own life…
Yeah I’m putting it out there, why?

For the simple reason that I believe many have these thoughts and deny them. They refuse to let others know, and the result is a suffer in silence syndrome.

Why do we go on? I don’t know, I don’t know why some persevere and why others don’t. At the end of one episode, I spent a month overdosing over and over again in hopes of a release from life entirely never to return. I had no way out that I knew was possible.

That was in 1986, quite a while back. I was blessed with a confrontation that asked if I was willing to see an alternative. With nothing left to lose, I accepted the offer.

I would, love to tell you I’ve never looked back since. But I would be lying and well, one thing I’ve been in my writings is transparent. No, you don’t need to know my business, no You don’t have the right to be in my business.. I share it willingly, why?

I don’t know why really… Maybe my words will touch someone and they too can see its worth a shot at sticking it out one more day, and then let the days add up until the desire to leave this place has passed.


Sometimes there really seem to be no way out, we allow ourselves to close our worlds into the such confined places that nothing comes in and nothing goes out.

And even when we’re putting ourselves out there, encouraging others, hearing the thanks and gratitude from others for sharing their time and lifting them up being told we’re awesome day after day. Our walls are impervious to everything good that wants return our blessings, why?

For most, we’ve developed a habit, an emotional, physical and yes spiritual conditioning over time that doesn’t want to be given up. We feel less than perfect, less than normal less than human. And god forbid we know others know what we’re going through. That would only make us feel worse. So we don’t tell anyone… no one, not family not friends, no, not no one, no way.

I would love to offer anyone reading this who feels like they’re not only stuck, but cannot possibly see no way out from their current situation, but…

The truth is we have to commit ourselves to the possibility that there is another way first. We have to accept that this is a very real life threatening condition we’re facing and if we don’t allow the ability to consider the possibilities of alternatives, then we’re going to follow through and we’re going to check out.

Thats just a fact. We’ll be just another statistic. People, are suffering from torture, real physical bodily harm torture at the hands of lunatics and even famlily members. People are being sent to jail for money & living in real life threat of imprisonment for money…. Money we don’t have… It’s just fuckin money for godsake!??!?

And thats just a touch, not to mention those who are being seriously tortured emotionally by friends and family and peers and even strangers…

To all these, I say there is a way out. Sounds insane, but we’ve been living in insanity for so long that the possibility of something other than what we’ve been living seems more fantasy than reality, and I completely agree with you.

It does sound unreal, but ts very very very real… I’m a fuckin living example that its real. I live for another day. And sometimes, THATS ALL I live for, just one more day…

You deserve just one more day, we all deserve just one more day, please for godsake give yourself one more day and reach out and let someone hold your hand and lead you to something Anything other than checking out

National Suicide Prevention Lifeline

Thats just one way, there are thousands of others, if we’re just willing to give another minute to our thoughts, just long enough, just…. long… enough…
It’s possible, its more possible than we can currently imagine…

Stay alive, please, we need you, your friends need you, you’re family needs you… I need you!

Trey Pennington

In Memory of Trey Pennington 09-04-2011

Let me wipe my tears long enough to see the keyboard and tell you, you think you’re alone, but you’re not, you think you’re the only one who’s going through this shit, you’re not, we’re out here, we’ve been there, and we’re alive to tell you you’re not alone.

I implore you beautiful soul; one more day, just reach out and give it one more day.

I love you always…

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3 Comments on Don’t Go

  1. mike on Thu, 8th Nov 2012 8:51 pm
  2. hello there dan my name is mike and i am i need of some serious help and i hope you can help. i just started meditation recently and am having trouble staying in alpha i think that my music is no good. how do you know if the music u listened to is the correct type. anyway i am worried sick about not ascending with all my brothers and sisters of this world. please help there is little time left i sense

  3. mike on Thu, 8th Nov 2012 8:53 pm
  4. oh yeah sorry forgot to ask u if u have any audio files
    u could send me

  5. DanLopez2012 on Fri, 9th Nov 2012 1:02 pm
  6. Hey Mike,
    1st off, lets drop the panic or worry… we can’t have low vibrations of fear and doubt while trying to attain higher vibrations.. That’s one thing… Maintaining Alpha requires 2 things, they’re not exclusive to each other, but they can be mutual. First thing is allowing, intention, desire and focus.. yeah yeah, I know I said one thing, but these all together are equal to a mindset which is just one thing. Maintain a minset equal to the above and this opens the purpose you want. Secondly, practice and patience, I digress, we can’t hold two vibrations equally at the same time, this tends to rip us apart over time, its just not healthy, as some amy be accustomed to such practice, like those who practice faith in the face of adversity

    “Tho I Believe and Trust and Have Faith, While In My Fear & Trembling, Grant Me More Faith And Courage To Face My Days On Earth!” Amen?

    Ultimately the fear & trembling should be replaced with courage & faith as well as trust, which is the opposite of doubt, the little demon that creeps into our thoughts and robs us of our peace at every level.

    And last but not least is this…

    Don’t freak out… This New Age Ascention thing has become the bugaboo of the modern age. Almost akin to the crusades of the early days before the dark ages. Billions of people have no internet. Does this mean they will NOT Ascend for lack of hearing the message? Does the Universe actually love these people less that they would be devoid of raising their vibrations to some self proclaimed level of mastery? If we are all Equal in the sight of all of creation, what seperates the whole?

    “Self” Self seperates us. Not that which is outside of Self.

    Alpha levels: Being in state (Alpha State) and not utilizing this condition of mind is a sure fire way of not knowing whether we’re in state or not. Are we using this state for the betterment of those around us? For the betterment of ourselves? What are we doing with this ‘state’ of consciousness?
    As Edgar Cayce is quoted saying, “It’s nice to be good, but be good for something”

    As for music to send:

    Here you will find the Gift of Tones, and in a day or two, Guided Meditations Vol.1 for relaxation, more chakra balancing, protection, and meeting your guides. All are embedded with Alpha wave entrainment and put to use this ‘state’ of consciousness.

    And while you’re there, I have tons of free audio shows that cover hundreds of topics, I pull no punches and keep no secrets, I am fallible just as much as the next person and have no problem discussing such… As well as offernig tools to use during this time of transition and change along our journey.

    Be at peace, and have no fear…

    I hope I wasn’t too long in tooth, and that this helps somehow…


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