Breaking Barriers
Sometimes, what’s really holding you back are the
very things that have been haunting you all your life.
These are the very essences of beliefs.. how do I know?
Very recently I had to face one of the biggest beliefs that have haunted me since I was nine years old.
Because of the extremely sensitive nature of this belief
I can and will only divulge this info to those who care about
changing they’re own destructive negative belief.
I can tell you it was a statement, just one single solitary
statement.. which, by itself could have been fluffed off had it
been made at a different time of my life…
But since it happened during a very influential time, it became quite real. I believed it. I believed it because situations in my life
seemed to be proving that it was true.
Things just weren’t happening for me. Nothing was ever going right.
When things did go right, they seemed to be short lived and lasted only for brief periods.. to the point where hard times became a way a of life.
No matter the amount of effort I would put into improving myself,
my learning, my knowledge, my wisdom, my abilities and my professional skills… My belief lived on.
You with me so far?
Even as I write this I can literally hear the shadow of that statement being made in my minds ear with distinct clarity. The only difference
between now and my last thirty six years of living is…
It Is NOT True For Me Any More.
I can repeat the statement to myself today, right now and I can just feel within my heart of hearts that this is NOT true.
But only a short while ago, this was not the case. I was completely
and emphatically under the spell of this statement. It was true…
There was absolutely no doubt in my mind that this was true..
How else could I explain my life? There was no other statement that could completely sum up he very fiber of my existence.
Until I changed it.
I’m not talkin about some fluffy little challenge here to overcome some little anxiety you may be experiencing now and again…
I’m talking a belief so debilitating that I literally would sit completely imobilized by the sheer weight of the belief. Unable to communicate or take action in any form.
I would isolate for very long periods..
I would be questioned by friends and family and have absolutely no answer for them. I would be stuck in my head for what seemed like hours weeks months and even years and still not be any where better than when I started.
This is the kind of thing that…
Counseling couldn’t help.
Therapy couldn’t help.
Reading couldn’t help.
Drugs couldn’t help.
Wealth couldn’t help.
Prayers couldn’t help.
Meditations couldn’t help
Affirmations couldn’t help.
Education couldn’t help.
Music couldn’t help.
Sex couldn’t help, well, for a time anyways.
Self help couldn’t help, nor could NLP practitioners.
Nothing, I mean NO THING would help.
After all for 36 some odd years I didn’t even know what the hell it was to begin with..
Then suddenly I started hearing things like
limiting beliefs
negative beliefs and
limiting negative beliefs..
Yeah, I know, same thing, but what the hell?
I mean, I lived a decent childhood up to a certain point, when all hell broke loose… As do most adolecents…
But this was, for many, a time when the adults in our lives were undergoing massive shifts in their own lives.. Things just sucked for everyone… Alcoholism was more than a way of life, it was life.
Child abuse was just a form of dicipline, living in terror was a norm.
Or just being ignored was actually a form of Gods Grace.
Now I may or may not be exaggerating a bit, I know of a few who were actually hospitalized during these times of their lives or even worse raped for some… being sexually abused was just another chain of events that proved the belief. When reaching out and trying to expose my tormentors I was rebuked as they were friends of the family and would never be expected to have acted out in such manor, so I must be delusional right?
Anyways…
I knew there was something wrong, but for the life of me
I could not in no definitive way place the exact point on what was
destroying me every living minute of the day.
Until one day it just hit me…
It was at a climatic time in my life…
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Keys, wallet, cellphone, briefcase off I go…
Hit the alarm
Pat the betrothed
Relief
Shower
Brush
Shave
Coffee…
Email…
Hi kids, bye kids..
Keys, wallet, cellphone, briefcase off I go…
1 Two hour ride into the city
1a Email…
2 Two ninety minute meetings with two different teams
2a Email…
3 One thirty minute lunch
3a Email…
4 Four twenty minute calls with clients
4a Email…
5 Ninety minutes with the underlings
5a Email…
6 One stroll through production floors
6a Email…
7 Two hours of report on project status updates
7a Email…
8 Last minute review of next days agenda
8a Email…
Keys, wallet, cellphone, briefcase off I go…
Two hour ride from the city
Kiss betrothed
Toss Keys, wallet, cellphone, briefcase
Mail…trash, bills, trash, bills, trash, bill
Hi kids, goodnite kids…
Devour cold dinner
Brush
Relief
Email….
Hi Leno, goodnite Leno, goodnite dear…
Zzzzzzzzzzz…
Hit the alarm…
Pat the betrothed
Relief
Shower
Brush
Shave
Coffee…
Hi kids?… Where are the kids dear?… “They moved out years ago,
how many times do I have to remind you?”
[Sigh...]
Email…
Keys, wallet, cellphone, briefcase off I go…
1 Two hour ride into the city
1a Email…
Where’s my Email?
Fred? Fred, what are you doing here? Didn’t you get the email?
“What email?”
Fred… you were let go last friday…
“Which friday?”
Fred, last Friday. We down-sized, you’re whole department was let go…
“Was there a severance?”
No Fred, we voted that out years ago everyone got the memo..
Fred, Fred are you okay? You don’t look so good.
SECURITY!???!!
We’re here at the scene where Fred Iznotokayz was last seen carrying the head of department leader Bill Shoulduvknown …
Focused Fiction…
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Chit-Chat in the spirit about mind
Having a spiritual life is or can be lonely.
It’s not everyday we get to connect with like minded people who we can bounce and share thoughts without ego or judgemental attitudes. So when we do.. It’s a blessing. totally something to savour. My friend and I were doing such and it helps me amp everytime we talk.
So I decided to post one of our skype chats… It’s long though.. but would seriously love some feedback on the subject
[Friend]: I am preparing with my mentor for 2012
[DanLopez2012]: it would be well for you to do this
[Friend]: yeah…interesting things about to happen…
[DanLopez2012]: and will continue to happen thereafter..
[Friend]: whether GOOD or BAD we must be ready
[DanLopez2012]: the only bad to come about will probably be man-made
[Friend]: yes
[DanLopez2012]: I just feel bad for those who can’t even hammer a
nail.. or cut a piece of wood.. or kill for a meal.. eh heh.. worst
case senarios
[Friend]: I agree…
[DanLopez2012]: you ever watch man-vs-wild.. what a great show
[Friend]: no
[DanLopez2012]: watch it some time.. they have great scenarios that I
thought wee freakin SO valuable.. I mean even if you have an accident
and you are forced to make it with the skin on your back..
[Friend]: Cool…i will check it out
[DanLopez2012]: Just knowin ya have some knowledge to keep ya goin a
few more days or weeks from little known sources.. is awesome.. I
don’t consider myself a major survivalist but damn good stuff
[Friend]: it helps a lot
[DanLopez2012]: if ya don’t mind me askin.. in what manner are you
preparing for 2012?
[Friend]: Spiritual Level…
[DanLopez2012]: kinda got that part
[Friend]: how about u
[DanLopez2012]: rebuilding my relationship with Source, raising
vibrations and being of help and of kind heart
[Friend]: cool…how are you doing this?
[DanLopez2012]: meditation, study and being round ppl on twitter..
kinda out in the sticks here so don’t get too much interaction with
ppl. If at all… specially during the winter months
[Friend]: Sweet! What are you studying
[DanLopez2012]: Just finished studying all the angels of the bible..
and continuing study… you gonna offer some info? Also working on
audios of a session of chakras being opened in succession.. I am
preparing sub audios to add that will allow ones self to get the
colors and audible tones of the colors embedded in the sessions
[Friend]: I have being Studying Science Of Being
[DanLopez2012]: is that like mindfulness?
[Friend]: Goes into detail about physical, mental, spiritual planes
[Friend]: I will get you a copy.
[Friend]: Book I is a summary in 7 lessons. The other Book is 27
lessons
[DanLopez2012]: who’s it by?
[Friend]: Baron Eugene Fersen
[DanLopez2012]: ahhh got it.. will look at it, thanks
[DanLopez2012]: The triune system of 27 lessons for the correlative
development of the individual.
[Friend]: Yes…
[Friend]: FOCUS on SPIRIT,LIFE,LOVE,TRUTH
[Friend]: MIND
[DanLopez2012]: Mind is the builder, spirit is the life, physical is
the result..
[Friend]: MIND alone CAN get you to SPIRIT…MORE of all
TRUTH,LOVE,LIFE,MIND the CLOSER to Spirit you will be
[Friend]: I mean “MIND alone cannot get you Spirit”
[Friend]: MIND alone is LUCIFER
[DanLopez2012]: ego is of the fallen
[Friend]: Yes…MIND alone is egotistic. Once the MIND awakes from the
DREAM. Mind connected with LOVE
[DanLopez2012]: lately, I’ve been struggling with the wording.. things
like the Dream and the Illusion.. thats all well and fine.. but its
not given for practical application of reason.. If this reality is all
we know.. then this dream is our living reality.. not that which is
unseen.. for we do not dwell in the spirit as naturally as we do in
this reality or sojourn.. I’m no swami.. and I’m not big on parables..
When these so called enlighten ones can’t speak plainly [not sayin
Eugene doesn't speak plainly] I meditate on it.. and if I’m not given
insight.. I dismiss it as mumbojumbo… it may be good mumbojombo that
others can resonate with and thats excellent.. it just doesn’t with
me… My friend Jeri studies A Course In Miracles.. I love the darn
thing.. but when they go into speaking of the illusion.. I guess Im’
not there yet.. so I catch an attitude LOL!!
[DanLopez2012]: I’ve come to understand, that consciousness is in
levels..
[Friend]: No worries…that is why we are.
[DanLopez2012]: the conscious, the sub-conscious, and the super-
conscious
[Friend]: We are stuck in this Thinking that keeps us in this mess. So
our thinking must change
[DanLopez2012]: just connecting with the subconscious is something..
getting to the superconscious is the goal.. bringing the infinite to
the finite
[Friend]: We can only get a glimpse
[Friend]: Fortunately I have experienced the ONENESS
[DanLopez2012]: ur not alone there
[Friend]: It was amazing
[DanLopez2012]: brought me to tears uncontrollable
[DanLopez2012]: I can’t even begin to describe it
[Friend]: This is when I knew that this PHYSICAL reality was an
illusion/dream
[DanLopez2012]: words just fail me
[DanLopez2012]: lol, its still OUR dream/illusion to be lived.. I
mean.. what does this revelation bring you? Knowing this is a
dream/illusion.
[Friend]: I know what I need to work on
[DanLopez2012]: lol
[DanLopez2012]: I’m not makin fun.. trust me..
[Friend]: lol
[Friend]: I know what I can experience NOW
[DanLopez2012]: That which brings the disturbance and the lack of
peace from they mind thy heart, that is whch is to be addressed in
self
[Friend]: Thy Heart is not the Issue..It is thy Mind
[Friend]: that needs to make PEACE
[DanLopez2012]: you think your heart is impervious?
[DanLopez2012]: be sure, the prayerful request for purifying thy heart
is not a light matter
[DanLopez2012]: it is not called a hardened heart for nothing
[DanLopez2012]: It is the whole of ones-self that need administering
of thy thoughts and actions through daily living that brings the peace
[Friend]: What causes the Heart not to be in Peace
[Friend]: We need to considered the Learn behaiors
[DanLopez2012]: thine experiences in the earthly plane.. it is thy
will which brings forth such that would hinder thine heart with
affliction
[Friend]: But what influences thy WILL
[DanLopez2012]: I’m just sayin.. I ask.. do not think Mind is of the
devil, it is not.. the ego, is of such matters.. what we keep our
mind on is what makes the difference.. for Mind is the builder
[Friend]: From my perspective and metaphoriclly speaking the
EGO/DEVIL/(mind alone)
[DanLopez2012]: then to lose ones mind is to render ones-self whole?
[Friend]: LUCIFER is a TWIN
[DanLopez2012]: there is no twin in he that has fallen.. his
exclusive, the light bearer once named and has lost that name from the
fall..
[Friend]: LUCIFER/MIND…must AWAKEN and realize THY FAULT
[DanLopez2012]: You were created as a co-creator with the Maker of
all.. a companion..
[Friend]: so was LUCIFER/MID
[Friend]: MIND
[DanLopez2012]: Our true dominion is the universe. That is our
rightful place of abode.. Returning to our Creator is our goal.
Lucifer is not of our creation.. we can in no manner come near , tho
He who lives in us has subdued all the earth therein and is mightier
than he.. through Him by Him may we go forth fearless
[DanLopez2012]: He who is the word, was with Him who created all from
the beginning…
Friend]: Exactly
[DanLopez2012]: So… bring HIM who has subdued the prince of this
world into thine heart into thine mind and leave Him to His work which
He has begun in us
[Friend]: metaphorically speakin yea
[DanLopez2012]: I am with you we must change.. we must ever endure to
seek and keep seeking.. Truth and light
[DanLopez2012]: To change our thoughts, and awaken to our true
spiritual consciousness
[DanLopez2012]: to bring the closer relationship to the creator, to
walk in the spirit
[Friend]: It is not easy…but the Soul keeps calling me OUT
[DanLopez2012]: expand if you can
[DanLopez2012]: out of body?
[Friend]: Sometimes the Ghetto Behavior kicks in and I got to remind
myself to get of it
[DanLopez2012]: well.. that changes with your environment.. and even
then it will take some time.. or more aptly put.. practice.. for it is
not all to be goody goody, but to be good for something
[DanLopez2012]: As you attract more of those who are like minded[sorry
for the pun] the ghetto behavior will not find its place..
[Friend]: My practice is to pull myself out as soon as possible
[Friend]: Because Ghetto peeps have to learn from somewhere
[DanLopez2012]: Ahhh.. so you are to be a teacher among your brethren
[Friend]: Yes my FAMILY was my Practice ground
[Friend]: It is well worth it:)
[DanLopez2012]: and what part of this ghetto behavior do you wish to
eliminate?
[Friend]: sometimes I run low on patience with some peeps doin stupid
shit
[DanLopez2012]: its fear.. in nature, in love there is no room for
fear, so fill yourself with love.. when it arises.. step aside and
whatch it.. do not fight it but be aware of it.. and then recognize
its start and eventual end..
[Friend]: yup…this is practice i am doing
[Friend]: it is not easy at times…
[Friend]: especially when your drained
[Friend]: I’ve got to pace myself and regenerate
[DanLopez2012]: if you love yourself, then the love of self will bring
forgiveness of self, when the forgiveness of self is in full then the
forgiveness of others will come naturally.. for it is harder to
forgive self than that which is outside of self..
[Friend]: the LOVE within
[Friend]: I got to remind myself the Energy in put will come back 10x
[DanLopez2012]: the tests always come when we are weak.. that is why
we must call upon and lean on and trust in Him.. which Glorifies
Himself in our weakness
[DanLopez2012]: throuygh Him we are strengthened through Him we may
overcome our weaknes and that which assails us from without and so
from within
[DanLopez2012]: I am certainly not alien to that your plight by any
means trust me
[Friend]: yup…easier said than done theredore we are in these
playgrounds to play so that we can surrender and realize it is just a
playground
[Friend]: When we realize it is a playground from HIM we can
ENJOY,LOVE, and TRUST
[Friend]: Then I realize the Playgorund was just a DREAM/ILLUSION…
[DanLopez2012]: Damn I’m good… Actually, its easier Done than Said,
for once it has been done, so the practice has begun.. and we may be
more than conquerors!



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